So I started watching Game of Thrones online because my dashboard is filled with Game of Throne fanatics, and I don’t have HBO. I really wanted to see what the hype was about. All I can say is, you can add another fanatic to the list. Here it is almost 5 o’clock in the morning and I haven’t gone to sleep yet. I’m hooked. Shame on me.

// Reading//

I forgot reading made me feel this way. I get so entranced into the characters and their story that it begins to feel like I know them personally…and this is one of the greatest feelings ever to be able to let your mind take a journey into the mind of another and go on this emotional whirlwind. I just love it.

// Life Lessons//

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.”
-George Bernard Shaw


          For a long time I thought there was supposed to be some epiphanous moment where one day I would wake up and I would have life figured out, and things would all fall into my favor. Sadly, I was mistaken. I was thrown for a loop, and realized that I could not sit back and wait for something great to happen. If I wanted to be great I would have to do great things; go against the odds and make something of the life I was given. So many people are just existing, and I was one of those people. I no longer want to just exist. I want to live. 
Life already had the odds stacked against me. I come from a neighborhood where the farthest you go is high school, and you are lucky if you make it out if there alive. College is not even an option where I come from, but I decided to choose the road less traveled. I wanted to make a name for myself. To create myself.
          Death claimed the lives of my mother and father, and for a while I lost sight of what the goal was, but life quickly reminded me of that goal. I realized that my parents would not want me to quit, and would be disappointed if I did. 
I have been receiving an abundance of blessings lately, and because of that the Devil has tried numerous times to rain on my parade. However, I have not let that get in my way. Now I just carry a umbrella for unexpected showers. I bask in the ambiance of God’s glory and thank him for all he has done. I was accepted to Cal State San Marcos this fall, and I am excited yet apprehensive because of the finances. I am able to pay for some of the fees and tuition with grants, but not all of it, and as of now I am not stressing over it; it is all in God’s hands now. 
           I’m majoring in Anthropology and minoring in sociology. I want to study people and different cultures. My dream is to travel to other countries and lend a helping hand. I want to team up with organizations and get the word out about human trafficking and world hunger. I am trying to create myself, and make my family proud. One day I know this dream will come true I just have to work hard and have the courage to stick my head out into the unknown. 

Wish me luck!

Bored so I started using my voxer again…probably will only entertain me for a short while.

// S.E.X//

People always feel compelled to ask me sex questions because I am a virgin. I am not against sex at all. I am not two, so the topic of sex doesn’t make me want to run and get a cootie shot. I am not disgusted by sex, nor am I afraid of it. The difference between me and you is I haven’t done the deed and you have. That is the only difference. I am a regular human being. It is such a shocker to people when they find out that I am 22 years old and never had sex. Most people ask me do I ever get horny. Honestly, the answer is no. Maybe that is hard to believe, but I just don’t. The world could end tomorrow and I would be perfectly fine with dying a virgin. However, I do know that eventually I will have to have sex and I am perfectly fine with that too. I think sex is a beautiful thing, a whole new artform, and one day me and someone else will create art together.

It probably looks like I am being mean when I am texting and messaging people because I never use smiley faces, and rarely use lol, but if it ain’t that funny I won’t laugh. And frankly smiley faces aren’t my thing. I am going to try a social experiment and try and incorporate them into my messaging and see where that gets me. 

I could really use my mom right now.